I'm a NINJA! Or maybe MacGuyver.

I have always prided myself on being resourceful.  I love to take whatever little items I can find and bend them to my will.

Today, I tested that skill again.

I was at work and I took my calendar off the wall to write something on it.  I went to hang it back on it's little push pin and instead, I dropped it.  Between the wall and my desk.  My desk has a back on it that goes to the floor. 

First I said, "Oh F---."  Mostly because it's already been a really crazy busy and stressful week.  And also, annoying. If you know me, you know I couldn't just leave it there. It would have made me nuts.  So I had to figure out how to get it out.

I started simple, grabbing my letter opener and trying to reach down with it and push it to the side of the desk.  That didn't work. It wasn't long enough, plus there are a bunch of wires and plugs that were blocking the way.  Then I grabbed our swiffer duster.  It was long enough and worked pretty well, but again the wires were a problem.  That wasn't going to work.  So I turned to paperclips. I can do a hundred different things with paperclips.  I'm always using them for this or that.  So today I took a paperclip, unbent part of it, threaded the other end through the hole in the end of my ruler and taped the paperclip so it couldn't rotate. 

I should mention, my calendar has a spiral bound wire at the top. 


SUCCESS!  I fed my contraption down the narrow space and looped my hook through the wire.  My calendar is a little crunched from the swiffer, but it is back on the wall where it belongs. 

Photographic evidence of my brilliance:

I'm bad ass you guys, you just don't know!

A plan!

So I had my first RE appointment!  I really like my doctor.  Even though I had to drive to Noblesville for my first visit.  From now on I'll be seen in Carmel, which is closer to work.  He's super personable and funny.  The got us in right on time, even a little early (we were early) and we didn't wait too long for the doctor...It may sound silly that I mention that, but have you noticed how long you have to wait sometimes?  Anyway, so the nurse took us back and the first thing she did was take a photo of my and my husband!  They want photos in their charts!  I thought that was really cool, they want us to be a face, not a name!

So today was mostly a consultation.  He listened to our medical and TTC history and asked some questions. Then he said that it sounds like I probably just need a little boost and I am a good candidate to try Clomid.  He said the first step is to do some bloodwork, a glucose tolerance test, and an ultrasound, plus a sperm analysis for Adam.  My part needs to be done on cycle day 3.  Depending on the results of those tests, I'll start Clomid on CD 5.  The bloodwork is to check various hormone levels etc and the glucose tolerance test is to make sure I'm not insulin resistant.  The ultrasound will mainly be a baseline to give them a clear picture of what my ovaries are doing and how things look in chateau de uterus. Later in my cycle I think I would have more blood work done to check on ovulation.  He wants me to keep using OPKs so that we get a clear picture on if Clomid is making a difference. 

According to my doctor, 33% of woman get pregnant after being treated with Clomid.  We'll do 3 or 4 cycles with Clomid and if that doesn't work he's going to do a dye test, which will check the lining of my uterus and my tubes.  At that point we would try an hormone injections.  He also told me that (and I'm writing it here so I can't forget it) that it may be frustrating at first, but not to get discouraged.  He seemed very optimistic about my chances of getting pregnant. I feel very comfortable with him.

So I have a plan!  I feel like it's a new start!  At last I am at least going to be trying something different.  I also got some good advice from a friend and I'm going to make an effort to try and stop obsessing so much and enjoy this time a little more.  Since I'm working with an RE I can't just stop using OPKs and not track at all, but I'm going to calm down a bit and readjust my thought process at least.  She laughed at me because I said I planned to try to take a bit of a break.  Yeah, I plan to relax and take a break.  My name is Melissa and I am a control freak. LOL

We'll see how it goes!  I had another positive opk today at 10:00 am but my temperature wasn't up this morning, so hopefully I ovulated today and tomorrow it'll go up.  That would put dear AF due around the 31st. 

So just a little more waiting and then on to the next step!  Thanks for reading as always and thanks for all of the support!!!  I love you guys!

It's about time!

So, as you reader(s) know, I have been TTC for over a year now and last month I had an early miscarriage, or chemical pregnancy.  I've heard that the month after a miscarriage can be different in a lot of ways. Some woman are more fertile after a miscarriage.  Some woman don't ovulate at all for a month or more after a miscarriage.  Some ovulate very late, causing them to have a longer than normal cycle.

I fall into the last group!  Today is CD (cycle day) 28 and I finally got a positive OPK today.  My cycles are generally around 32 days long and I usually ovulate around CD18-22. I was really starting to think it wouldn't happen this month, which really ticked me off.  I mean, I lost my pregnancy, wasn't that enough? I shouldn't have to lose a month of trying on top of it. 

However, the timing isn't what I was hoping for.  I have my first appointment at my Reproductive Endocrinologist tomorrow. I'm not sure what to expect, so I planned to *ahem* abstain today.  Oh well.

So here's to a long TWW (proceeded by a four week wait).  Aunt Flo should be due for her visit around 7/30-7/31 if my leutal phase is it's normal 11-12 days.

I feel like in a small way this cycle is easier on me because I have my appointment tomorrow as "back up". Of course, I want to get pregnant this month, but if Aunt Flo arrives, at least I will hopefully be armed with new information about myself and with any luck, a plan!

Stay tuned tomorrow for details on my appointment!

Seven

Seven years ago today I married my best friend.  It's a day I wish I could relive.  I felt such pure joy that day.  I'm so lucky to have Adam as my husband.  He's patient, funny, hard working, and generous.  I feel so blessed that I met him!  We met when I was 20, married when I was 22 and now at 29 I remind myself how lucky I am to have found my soulmate at such a young age.

Fill it in Friday 3!

I forgot!  It's Friday, so you get TWO blogs today :)

1.   I am a (morning, evening, middle of the day) person... Typically morning because I'd rather get things done early and then relax.

2.  My favorite Pandora stations are...  I usually create stations by searching for songs, so right now it's Glee, Rent, Jar of Hearts, and If I Die Young.

3.  3 of my “must-have” songs for a road trip playlist are...  Eh Adam and I would probably listen to HP on tape

4.  My favorite pattern is... What do you mean, like paisley?  LOL Okay, um...there are some cute plaids out right now

5.  My favorite perfume is... I don't really use perfume. I like BBW splashes. My fav is sun ripened raspberries

6.  Rules are... necessary, but in moderation

7.  My most overused phrase or punctuation is... Probably LOL and I know right?  Punctuation is definitely ellipses and exclamation marks! LOL

Something to look forward to

I've always set myself little events to look forward to.  Usually it's a visit with a friend, a night out with my husband, a day of work, whatever.  It's something I started doing in middle school when I was really depressed.  You see, my middle school (which was the same as my elementary school) was quite small.  It's a private school and the classes very small. For example, my class in 8th grade graduated with 16 students.  And that was the entire 8th grade.  I was not popular by any means.  I was actually the polar opposite of popular.  I had my tiny group of friends and a small group of people that sort of made my life miserable.  There were also people who pretty much stayed out of it, or just laughed instead of joining in.  Anyway, I got really depressed that year.  I hated school and wanted so badly for the year to end that I started doing this. I would think of something to look forward to that was happening in the next few days or weeks.  Eventually the year ended, but this habit of mine remained.

Two things I have been looking to are Adam and my wedding anniversary and the release of the FINAL (gasp, sob) Harry Potter movie.  Since both of those things are happening this weekend, I'm rolling them into one.  Tomorrow night, Adam and I will go out to dinner (Texas Roadhouse, our favorite) and then to the movies to see the HP movie.  I'm so excited! If you are new to my blog, I'm a big HP fan.  I can't wait to see the rest of the story played out on screen, even if it means there will be no more.

Life has been hard and stressful lately, but having things like this to look forward to have helped me get through them.  Now I'm just looking forward to enjoying my weekend, my seventh anniversary, a great meal, and what promises to be a great movie.

Enjoy your weekends too, dear reader! 

In the know

That title came to me randomly and I'm not confidant that it will become relevant as I write, but I like it and so that's that.  Basically, it fit my stream of consciousness/update type blog for today!

BULLET POINTS!  you know I love them....along with ellipses!  I have also noticed that I use a lot of exclamation points.  Anyway.

• Current obsession:  The Glee Project.  It's a reality show on Oxygen that is a competition to win a role on the show GLEE, which I love.  The kids on there are fantastic and I could actually see them all as a new Glee cast.  They are all extremely talented and although a few of them get on my nerves, they are also mostly completely endearing.  The songs are great!  
• Still on the TTC train, no news there...waiting to ovulated...CD 20 :-P hopefully tomorrow...I've never gotten a positive OPK later than CD 21.
• Took Tyler to the GI specialist today. They want to try a different medication for his constipation...hopefully it helps!
• I see my Reproductive Endocrinologist NEXT WEEK!  I can't wait, I really hope it goes well.
• I've been watching a new series called Switched at Birth.  There is a deaf character on the show and it has totally reawakened my desire to learn sign language.  On the Bucket List it goes!  
• It is REALLY HOT here right now. Like HOT .  Like 115 degrees with the heat index.  UGH.
• I've been slacking on my diet. I haven't really gained anything back, but I haven't lost in weeks.  Bad girl :( I need to get back to workouts
• I'm out of bullet points and it's time for Tyler's juice!  

Now you are in the know!  LOL

Fill it in Friday 2!

1.  My plans for the summer include     There's the mundane work, taking care of my little man and then probably take some vacation time in August. We'll do the State Fair, maybe a picnic, etc.  Also in August, I'm in a friend's wedding and I'm actually really excited about the dress I'm wearing. 

2.  The best summer I ever had was    Hmmm...Probably the summer I met my husband.  I had a real social life and we hung out a lot.


3.  Summer is     not too different from the rest of the year for me, just hotter and makes me no want to be at work more.


4.  My favorite summer food is  HOT DOGS on the grill!  YUM! Don't forget the S'mores!


5.  The best way to quench a summer thirst is with    Frozen Coke!  I became addicted when I was pregnant with Tyler and I love them!


6.  My summer uniform consists of    Short sleeved shirt, shorts or capris and sandals.  Pretty basic


7.  The best thing about summer is     There is a lot to go and do.  Lots of events, go to the pool, and the best movies come out.  Lots of BBQs and hanging out with friends.

Fill it in Friday!

Snagged this idea from my friend's blog (http://postonmommymonologues.blogspot.com/) and thought I would join in.  The idea is there will be a new survey thingy every Friday.  Hoping it will make for some informative light hearted content!  Feel free to join, fellow bloggers!

1.   The best news I ever received was....When I found out I was pregnant with Tyler.

2.  Something I’m looking forward to is.... Hopefully having another child.

3.  Something I would never do is....Eat caviar.  Seriously. 

4.  If I could choose someone to be my life coach (famous or not, living or dead), I’d choose....Wow tough one.  Serious answer would be Princess Diana because I think she dealt with every situation with such poise and grace.  However, I will say one of the first things the popped into my head was Dory from Finding Nemo. That funny little fish gave some solid advice!

5.  If I had to put a label on my style it would be.... Casual but feminine. I'm very much a comfort girl, but I do put some effort into putting together what I wear.

6.  One should always.... be kind to themselves and others

7.  I want to....take a vacation!