This month SUCKS. Praise Jeebus it only has 3 more days, two of which are weekend. Work has been awful, Tyler hasn't felt well and will have his endoscopy next week, so he can't take his reflux meds and it's already bothering him. And, not surprisingly, I'm not pregnant.
Okay, shake it off...letitgo
Good things! I'm going to have a niece in April!! My sister in law, who has three wonderful boys that I love to bits, is finally going to have a girl! I can't wait to meet Elizabeth Grace!!
Tyler peepeed in the potty for the first time yesterday! With all of his constipation problems, potty training has been delayed for the most part, and it was totally an accident that he went, but it's the first step! My big boy!!!
Good things...good things...I could probably think of more, but I'm tired and cranky, so that's all I got! Come on November, bring me good things!
Friday, October 28, 2011
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
Duh
Today I got a text message from twin. "I can't find my phone. Can you call me?" So I did. She answered right away.
Me: "so you found it."
Twin: *giggles gleefully* "nooooo....how could I text you if I couldn't find my phone?" *more giggles*
Me: *facepalm* "you suck."
I really fell for that. The good news is so did my husband! :-D LOL!
It's been one of those weeks where things just aren't working like they are supposed to! I haven't even really been getting mad about it. It's sort of funny! Monday, I came to work to find my monitor kaput. Tuesday, the scanner wouldn't work. Or rather it wouldn't work FOR ME. Today my vein wouldn't work! They never have a hard time taking my blood and yet....
Ah well, its amusing, really!
ETA: Yeah and now I realize that submitting my blogs via text message posts very short separate entries. Why on Earth would I want that?! *rolls eyes*
Me: "so you found it."
Twin: *giggles gleefully* "nooooo....how could I text you if I couldn't find my phone?" *more giggles*
Me: *facepalm* "you suck."
I really fell for that. The good news is so did my husband! :-D LOL!
It's been one of those weeks where things just aren't working like they are supposed to! I haven't even really been getting mad about it. It's sort of funny! Monday, I came to work to find my monitor kaput. Tuesday, the scanner wouldn't work. Or rather it wouldn't work FOR ME. Today my vein wouldn't work! They never have a hard time taking my blood and yet....
Ah well, its amusing, really!
ETA: Yeah and now I realize that submitting my blogs via text message posts very short separate entries. Why on Earth would I want that?! *rolls eyes*
Friday, October 7, 2011
A request
Do you think if I put in a request now for next week to not suck, it might be granted?
'Cause really, last week sucked. And this week, pretty much a suckfest too.
Firstly, my mom's diabetic 11 year old cat Tigger has been sick. He had something that looked like a seizure the other day. We were told it might have been a reaction to flea treatments and him being diabetic. So we gave the cat a bath. That wasn't a lot of fun. The next day my mom took him to the vet. Turns out he is VERY anemic. They aren't sure why, and my mom flat cannot afford the tests to really figure out why. So far the vet is treating him as best as he can, with fluids mostly. This vet doesn't keep animals overnight, so we keep having to take him back in to be checked again. They are being super great and not charging for the extra care, God bless them. But it remains to be seen if anything they can do at this point will help.
Also, today Tyler had a doctor's appointment at his GI specialist. Tyler has been treated for acid reflux since he was a newborn. He is also super picky about what he will eat and he has issues with constipation. I went in thinking they were going to tell us to keep doing what we are doing, since he isn't doing too badly. Instead, they said they want to do an endoscopy to see if there is an underlying problem that is causing him to not eat that well. They also want to put a probe in for 24 hours that will measure the amount of reflux he's having. Just the thought of putting him through that is making me feel sick. I know it's what is best, they'll be able to treat him if there is a problem or we can take him off the reflux medication if that's not an issue anymore. But it's still an awful though for a mother to have to allow her child to go through a scary thing like that.
Finally, I had my HSG test today. It went okay, my uterus and right fallopian tube look good, but they dye wouldn't go through my left tube. The doctor is blaming the fact that I was cramping during the procedure. Apparently, the opening of the tube is only about 1 millimeter, so if the uterus is cramping, the dye might not be able to get through. Since the dye wasn't getting in at all and I don't have any history that would suggest a blockage, he isn't very concerned. So we will continue with this cycle of Clomid and then move on if it doesn't work.
I guess I didn't think they would find anything abnormal, so now that nasty doubt is creeping in a little bit. I know that if it's meant to be, it will happen. But in this moment, I feel overwhelmed and sad. I guess it's probably everything going on at once.
But if the universe could possibly squeeze out a less stressful, more pleasant or at least less eventful week next week, I would really appreciate it. Just putting it out there.
'Cause really, last week sucked. And this week, pretty much a suckfest too.
Firstly, my mom's diabetic 11 year old cat Tigger has been sick. He had something that looked like a seizure the other day. We were told it might have been a reaction to flea treatments and him being diabetic. So we gave the cat a bath. That wasn't a lot of fun. The next day my mom took him to the vet. Turns out he is VERY anemic. They aren't sure why, and my mom flat cannot afford the tests to really figure out why. So far the vet is treating him as best as he can, with fluids mostly. This vet doesn't keep animals overnight, so we keep having to take him back in to be checked again. They are being super great and not charging for the extra care, God bless them. But it remains to be seen if anything they can do at this point will help.
Also, today Tyler had a doctor's appointment at his GI specialist. Tyler has been treated for acid reflux since he was a newborn. He is also super picky about what he will eat and he has issues with constipation. I went in thinking they were going to tell us to keep doing what we are doing, since he isn't doing too badly. Instead, they said they want to do an endoscopy to see if there is an underlying problem that is causing him to not eat that well. They also want to put a probe in for 24 hours that will measure the amount of reflux he's having. Just the thought of putting him through that is making me feel sick. I know it's what is best, they'll be able to treat him if there is a problem or we can take him off the reflux medication if that's not an issue anymore. But it's still an awful though for a mother to have to allow her child to go through a scary thing like that.
Finally, I had my HSG test today. It went okay, my uterus and right fallopian tube look good, but they dye wouldn't go through my left tube. The doctor is blaming the fact that I was cramping during the procedure. Apparently, the opening of the tube is only about 1 millimeter, so if the uterus is cramping, the dye might not be able to get through. Since the dye wasn't getting in at all and I don't have any history that would suggest a blockage, he isn't very concerned. So we will continue with this cycle of Clomid and then move on if it doesn't work.
I guess I didn't think they would find anything abnormal, so now that nasty doubt is creeping in a little bit. I know that if it's meant to be, it will happen. But in this moment, I feel overwhelmed and sad. I guess it's probably everything going on at once.
But if the universe could possibly squeeze out a less stressful, more pleasant or at least less eventful week next week, I would really appreciate it. Just putting it out there.
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
New News
A friend of mine mentioned that I hadn’t written on my blog in awhile. That’s true. I guess there are a few reasons for that…One is that I’m cheating. LOL I’ve been contributing to a blog for woman TTC. It’s been nice to be able to share my experiences there. I don’t get a lot of comments, but I really do hope that some girls are reading it and can relate. It helps me to write it, anyway. I don’t think I’ll stop writing about TTC here, but I do think it won’t be the main focus.
So long story short, we are still trying to conceive baby number 2. I’ve been seeing a reproductive endocrinologist and his office has been wonderful to work with. I’m on my third cycle of Clomid. So far, we know that I am ovulating and that everything else looks relatively normal. The first month, I ovulated on CD 16 (normal for me was 18-23). Last month I ovulated on CD 15. The first month, I got my period 14 days after ovulation. Last month was only 11 days after ovulation. Both months, my progesterone level was normal (12.6 the first month, 16 last month), but I was having spotting a few days before my period began. My doctor thinks my progesterone level might be dropping a little earlier than it is supposed to, which could prevent a fertilized egg from implanting. So this month, I’ll be taking progesterone supplements after I ovulate. Hopefully it will help. I am also scheduled to have a test called HSG done on Friday. Basically, dye will be inserted into my uterus and they will be able to check for abnormalities and blockages in the fallopian tubes. This is all guided by X-ray. I am anxious to see what they find. Many women have success shortly after the test, so I hope it might help us.
Another reason is that I just don’t have that much to write about. I’m in one of those ruts where life becomes a routine. It’s not a bad thing, but there is not a lot of exciting, witty things to write about just now. I work, I take care of Tyler, I run errands, and I do things around the house. That’s about it! And I’ve been watching WAY too much TV lately. I’ll feel better about that once I get my elliptical back in the house so I can work out while I watch. LOL
Tyler is doing well. He’s chosen his Halloween costume (Thomas the Tank Engine) and we were finally able to get his hair cut last weekend (not the easiest thing). He is not in the least bit interested in potty training (why am I not surprised), but I hope we’ll be able to tackle that soon. He is being hilariously literal these days. We've been working really hard at manners lately, specifically saying please. He will ask for something and we remind him to say please. When he says please (only) we try to get him to say the question again AND say please. Usually he just agrees at that point, because he thinks we are asking. LOL
The weather is cooler and the leaves are changing colors. Fall is one of my favorite seasons. I love the weather and how pretty it is outside. It makes me think of change and wonder what will change for me before the next fall. Only time will tell.
Thanks always for reading!
Sunday, September 11, 2011
I Remember
I can't believe it's been ten years since that day. I was a sophomore in college. My mom and my twin sister and I were in the car on the way to school (yeah, twin and I didn't have cars back then, don't judge) when we heard that a plane had crashed into one of the Twin Towers. We were shocked, how could an accident like that happen? We listened, uneasy, on the way into town. Once on campus, I headed to a computer lab to kill some time before my first class. Everyone was talking about what happened and suddenly it was being said that a second plane had struck the other tower.
My stomach turned over. It was suddenly horrifyingly obvious that this was not an accident. I wasn't sure what to do, but I couldn't sit still. I grabbed my things and went to find a phone. I called home. I had to try several times, because I kept getting the "All circuits are busy" message. Finally I reached my dad. "Dad, what's going on?" I asked. He didn't know much more than I did, but he told me that my mom was looking for me, that she wanted us to come home.
I quickly found my mom in the parking lot and told her I would go and find Angie. I rushed across campus, having no clue what class she was in or where it was. I hurried to the adviser's offices, where a friend of mine was working. She did me a favor and looked up my sister's schedule. I rushed to her class and together we went back to my mom and headed home.
The rest of the day, I sat in front of the television, transfixed. I got home in time to see the first tower fall. I watched the same images over and over again. The planes striking the mighty towers. The burning pentagon. The gaping hole in the ground in Pennsylvania. The towers fell and I cried, wondering how many people had just survived the attack only to die such a horrible death in the collapse.
That day was my generations "Where were you when". It joins such events as Kennedy's assassination, Pearl Harbor, and the Challenger exploding as events that people talk about throughout their lifetimes, event that they describe to the younger generation.
I have always been a writer. Stories, diaries, journals, I've always written down my thoughts in one form or another. I don't write much by hand these days, it tends to go down more by keyboard. But I do still occasionally write in the same journal that I was writing in that year. Here is what I wrote that day:
This is a day that will be entered into the history books and read by my children. The United States was attacked by terrorists today. They hijacked 4 planes--Commercial jets with passengers. Two of them were deliberately crashed into the Twin Trade Towers in Manhattan, New York. One crashed into the Pentagon. The last one was headed for D.C. too, possibly targeting the Capitol or the White House. It crashed somewhere in Pennsylvania, about 80 miles from Pittsburgh. The most devastation was in New York. The towers both collapsed. Footage makes it look like the whole island is on fire...it's horrible. Thousands, maybe even tens of thousands, have been killed today. God it just feels like the world is going crazy. I know one thing, I will be going to bed tonight knowing I am not as safe as I thought I was. Everyone sees the U.S. as strong, a superpower, but today, we were vulnerable. Devastation. Horror. Death. Destruction. Lost Innocence. Fear. Despair. Loss. Terror. War...is it possible? Is this war? I think that the world will never be the same. I know that I will never be the same.
A lot has changed since that day. The world isn't the same. But our lives go on. Today, I remember the lives of those that ended that day.
God Bless America
My stomach turned over. It was suddenly horrifyingly obvious that this was not an accident. I wasn't sure what to do, but I couldn't sit still. I grabbed my things and went to find a phone. I called home. I had to try several times, because I kept getting the "All circuits are busy" message. Finally I reached my dad. "Dad, what's going on?" I asked. He didn't know much more than I did, but he told me that my mom was looking for me, that she wanted us to come home.
I quickly found my mom in the parking lot and told her I would go and find Angie. I rushed across campus, having no clue what class she was in or where it was. I hurried to the adviser's offices, where a friend of mine was working. She did me a favor and looked up my sister's schedule. I rushed to her class and together we went back to my mom and headed home.
The rest of the day, I sat in front of the television, transfixed. I got home in time to see the first tower fall. I watched the same images over and over again. The planes striking the mighty towers. The burning pentagon. The gaping hole in the ground in Pennsylvania. The towers fell and I cried, wondering how many people had just survived the attack only to die such a horrible death in the collapse.
That day was my generations "Where were you when". It joins such events as Kennedy's assassination, Pearl Harbor, and the Challenger exploding as events that people talk about throughout their lifetimes, event that they describe to the younger generation.
I have always been a writer. Stories, diaries, journals, I've always written down my thoughts in one form or another. I don't write much by hand these days, it tends to go down more by keyboard. But I do still occasionally write in the same journal that I was writing in that year. Here is what I wrote that day:
This is a day that will be entered into the history books and read by my children. The United States was attacked by terrorists today. They hijacked 4 planes--Commercial jets with passengers. Two of them were deliberately crashed into the Twin Trade Towers in Manhattan, New York. One crashed into the Pentagon. The last one was headed for D.C. too, possibly targeting the Capitol or the White House. It crashed somewhere in Pennsylvania, about 80 miles from Pittsburgh. The most devastation was in New York. The towers both collapsed. Footage makes it look like the whole island is on fire...it's horrible. Thousands, maybe even tens of thousands, have been killed today. God it just feels like the world is going crazy. I know one thing, I will be going to bed tonight knowing I am not as safe as I thought I was. Everyone sees the U.S. as strong, a superpower, but today, we were vulnerable. Devastation. Horror. Death. Destruction. Lost Innocence. Fear. Despair. Loss. Terror. War...is it possible? Is this war? I think that the world will never be the same. I know that I will never be the same.
A lot has changed since that day. The world isn't the same. But our lives go on. Today, I remember the lives of those that ended that day.
God Bless America
Thursday, September 1, 2011
Scary Smart
I have come to the conclusion that my son is scary-smart. Once he started to talk, he learned words so quickly! He has known his alphabet for ages and is fairly good with counting too (he used to have something against the number 4, but he's over that now). Here are a few more examples of his brilliance:
Forgive the somewhat evil expression, he was very excited.
He's going to be so much smarter than me, and I'm just thrilled about that.
- We love to show off his smarts with a series of questions. He can tell people his full name, how old he is, where he lives (City and state), what street he lives on, and his mommy and daddy's names.
- He loves to play with my husband's old basketball cards. One day, he was handing them to Adam and asking "Who dis is?", so Adam told him each players name. From that day forward, he began handing them to people and telling them who that card was. I'm not kidding. "Mookie Blaylock, Dennis Rodman, Dana Barrows, Hakeem Olajuwon (yeah, that one is funny to hear him say)".
- He has a crazy good memory. He knows his schedule and he wants to stick to it, everything from when his favorite shows are on to which way to drive to certain stores and restaurants. For example, there is a doughnut shop not far from my house and we have been there with Tyler ONE TIME. And still, when we turn down that street, he asks to go there.
- Finally, he is a very technological child. He got his hands on an IPad once and mastered it immediately. On the few occasions where we've been desperate for something to occupy him, he has become a whiz at our cell phones. He even plays with our old models (which we even charge so he can turn them on) and can do things that I couldn't figure out in 2 years of using the phone! Plus, he loves to use the computer. He knows where the bookmarks are and where his games are (he gets to play as a treat when he's been very good).
He's going to be so much smarter than me, and I'm just thrilled about that.
Monday, August 29, 2011
Updates
So! It was a busy week! Work was crazy and abbreviated last week. We thought Tyler had broken out with hives so that was scary and stressful. He broke out into spots, but then they sort of disappeared. We took him to the doctor and she suspected hives because they had faded. However, they were back the next day. The final conclusion was bug bites :( It's a relief that it's not an allergy though! He's doing much better now.
I was a bridesmaid in my friend Mandy's wedding this weekend! Friday was the rehearsal dinner and it was a TON of fun! I really like Nate and Mandy's friends and family! We ate outside in the backyard and little did I know, I was becoming dinner too! I have (at last count) 36 bug bites on my feet and legs! I itch like crazy!
The wedding was Saturday and it was beautiful! It was really touching to see how in love Nate and Mandy are and how emotional it was for them. It was wonderful!
Sunday was grocery and cleaning day, along with resting my high-heel sore feet and trying not to scratch my legs!
It was back to work today :-P time for month end and covering for someone on vacation. It's going to be a busy one before a 3 day weekend!
I was a bridesmaid in my friend Mandy's wedding this weekend! Friday was the rehearsal dinner and it was a TON of fun! I really like Nate and Mandy's friends and family! We ate outside in the backyard and little did I know, I was becoming dinner too! I have (at last count) 36 bug bites on my feet and legs! I itch like crazy!
The wedding was Saturday and it was beautiful! It was really touching to see how in love Nate and Mandy are and how emotional it was for them. It was wonderful!
Sunday was grocery and cleaning day, along with resting my high-heel sore feet and trying not to scratch my legs!
It was back to work today :-P time for month end and covering for someone on vacation. It's going to be a busy one before a 3 day weekend!
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