Updates

So!  It was a busy week!  Work was crazy and abbreviated last week.  We thought Tyler had broken out with hives so that was scary and stressful.  He broke out into spots, but then they sort of disappeared.  We took him to the doctor and she suspected hives because they had faded.  However, they were back the next day.  The final conclusion was bug bites :(  It's a relief that it's not an allergy though!  He's doing much better now. 

I was a bridesmaid in my friend Mandy's wedding this weekend! Friday was the rehearsal dinner and it was a TON of fun!  I really like Nate and Mandy's friends and family!  We ate outside in the backyard and little did I know, I was becoming dinner too!  I have (at last count) 36 bug bites on my feet and legs!  I itch like crazy! 

The wedding was Saturday and it was beautiful!  It was really touching to see how in love Nate and Mandy are and how emotional it was for them.  It was wonderful!

Sunday was grocery and cleaning day, along with resting my high-heel sore feet and trying not to scratch my legs!

It was back to work today :-P time for month end and covering for someone on vacation. It's going to be a busy one before a 3 day weekend!

What would I be?

My mom and I spent a lot of time talking on our little roadtrip last week.  I asked her what she would do (for a living) if she could do anything.  Not considering money, training, or even talent.  She said she would want to be a marine biologist.  She didn't even hesitate.

So why, a week later, am I still wondering what my answer to that question would be?  Well, as my mom pointed out, one reason is that I think way too much about a question like that.  I think, well I'd like to be a singer or an actress.  But then I think no, because I want to be married and have my kid(s) and live in Indiana and I couldn't really do those things and have that life. 

I guess it comes down to I can't imagine a life other than the one I have.  Sure, the trials and challenges aren't so desirable, but I would rather have my friends and my family then to trade away my problems.  Bottom line, I may not know what I want to be when I "grow up" or what I'd be if I could be anything, but today, I'm pretty happy just being me.

Now if only being me included a bigger paycheck :)

That's how it's done!

Month one of Clomid!  So far, no major side effects, although it's early for some of that. Just a little breast tenderness and a little cramping.  My OPK was positive today, CD 16!  That's early for me, I'm usually CD 18-22.  I'm having pain in my right ovary too, and I never have ovulation pain.  Good sign, I think.  I'm encouraged, but trying not to stress.  I don't really expect it to work the first month. 

In other news, we're on vacation this week.  Monday was the fair and we had an awesome time!  Tuesday my mom and I went to southern Indiana to visit several cemeteries and take pictures of the graves of our relatives. It was a lot of fun and very interesting too!  One of my relatives helped found the tiny town and so there were really big memorials of their family!

Yesterday we took Tyler to the GI specialist and then went out to lunch and today we did some garage sailing.  I got a bean bag chair for Tyler for a dollar and a garden hose reel for $4.  Score! 

Relaxation and house work tomorrow and then on to the weekend!  Why aren't vacations longer?

Sadness that hits home

I've lived in Indiana all my life.  When bad things happen where you live, it's very surreal.  Last night, at a Sugerland concert at the Indiana State Fairgrounds, the stage collapsed.  It was getting ready to thunderstorm and the wind simply blew the metal scaffolding over into the crowd.  At least 5 people were killed and many more we injured.  Today I pray for the families of those affected.  When something like that happens in a place where you have actually set foot, it really hits home.  I've gone to the State Fair every year for as long as I can remember.  I'm going there tomorrow.  I went to a Reba McIntyre concert in those very grandstands when I was in high school. 

Tonight, where ever you are, how few readers I may have, please say a prayer for the people affect by this tragedy and others like it that happen all too often...I know I will.

Blame it on the hormones

Today was not a good day.  I think I'm in a bit of a funk.  Work isn't great, home isn't great, I'm worried about a hundred and one things.  Tyler's been super fussy, not sleeping well, and not eating well.

And now I'm messing with my hormones. Yeah, that was smart.

I was ranting a little (okay, a lot) at work today.  This was not the day to try to deal with the Indiana Bureau of Motor Vehicles.  I have a theory that they hold auditions to work at the BMV instead of interviews, because it seems like the most unpleasant people work there.  Anyway, long story short, I was trying to set up an account on their dealer website so that I can order temporary license plates for our customers.  We just found out it has to be done online now.  So the website said to enter my dealer number and they would email me the new password.  But they don't have my email.  There was a note that said that if that was the case, to call this phone number to have an email added.  So I did that.  And the lady said I had to have a letter signed by one of three people listed in their system.  The first two have retired. The third is the OWNER of my company.  Yeah, I need to bother the owner of my company and ask him to please have the Indiana BMV add my email address to their system.

Seems pretty trivial to me and I'm sure it will seem trivial to him as well, but that's what I've got to do.  So anyway, I was telling my boss this and describing the snarkiness of the BMV employee and he (not so delicately, I might add) asked if I had started taking my fertility medication.

I sort of just stared at him for a minute, at first sort of taken aback that he would ask me that.

And then I thought, "Huh.  Yeah, I guess that could be it."

And the cherry on the craptastic day?  I broke my glasses.  I was pulling a shirt off over my head and crack!  The leg snapped clean off.  So I will be walking around with scotch tape around my glasses until the weekend when I can go get them fixed.  I could really use the "Reparo" charm right now.

*sigh*

On the plus side (gotta try to find one), my hormone levels at my appointment were fine.  My ultrasound must have been too, since they gave me the prescription for Clomid. I haven't heard back about my Glucose and Insulin levels, but I felt pretty much fine after drinking the lovely orange soda, so I think it'll come back okay too.  AND I'm taking vacation next week.  Even if homelife isn't great right now, it's got to be better than work and homelife put together, right?





right?





Anyone?  Bueller?

Full steam ahead!

In the hopes of trying to avoid another TMI, I'll just say that today is Cycle Day 1!!!  I did a little happy dance when I made that little discovery!  So I called my RE's office and scheduled my tests for Friday morning!  Here's a rundown:

7:45 AM Glucose Tolerance Test (which means nothing to eat or drink after midnight!)
8:45 AM Baseline Ultrasound
9:45 AM Bloodwork

They said the results should only take a few days to come back and I can go ahead and start Clomid on CD 5, Sunday!  I'm so excited to get started!  I hope this is the tool that will finally help me succeed at having another child!

Thank you all for following along with my journey, I hope I'm not boring and/or grossing you all out!

Is she or isn't she?

Be warned, this blog may be a little TMI! :)

So last night I was getting ready to go to bed and I noticed that I was spotting a little bit.  Obviously I've been on the watch for Aunt Flo, and I noticed the TP was a tiny bit pink.  For the first time in my entire life, I was happy!  Yes, this is what we want, get this crazy cycle over so that I can get started with THE PLAN! (See THE PLAN here) 

I went to bed, assuming that AF would be in full force by morning.

You know what assuming does, right?

I've been spotting all day, mostly brown (sorry) but even a tiny bit of reddish once earlier.  It comes and goes.  WTH is that about?  I never spot, I usually got to the bathroom and Hello Aunt Flo!  I don't know if this is more fall out from the miscarriage or what?! 

So officially, I am still waiting for AF.  If she doesn't show tomorrow I'm in danger of having the schedule be pretty messed up in terms of getting into the RE for testing on CD 3 :-/

On a positive not, hubby's swimmers look good.  I assumed they would, but it's good to know that's not an issue!

And that concludes your TMI post for today!  This post was brought to you by the letters A and F and the color red.  lol