Song Lyrics for Loss: Beam Me Up

I'm still here.  Life is going on.  I still think about my loss every day. It's not taking over my life, and most of the time I think about it without getting terribly upset. Its in the quiet moments alone in the car or in bed at night that I think about it.  I'm still reminded any time I do something I couldn't do while I was pregnant.  I was so glad to turn the page on my calendar today at work, to a page that didn't have doctor's appointments scratched out on it. I'm taking it a day at a time, trying to find things that help when I need to think about it.

For example, I love music. I find it very healing.  So it should surprise no one that I went looking for songs to put into words some of what I've been feeling. I thought I'd do a little series of some of the song that brought me comfort. The title should link to the page I got the lyrics from, and you can play the song there I think, or they are on YouTube. If there are any I should check out, please leave them in the comments.

"Beam Me Up" Pink

 There's a whole 'nother conversation going on
In a parallel universe.
Where nothing breaks and nothing hurts.
There's a waltz playin' frozen in time
Blades of grass on tiny bare feet
I look at you and you're lookin' at me.

Could you beam me up,
Give me a minute, I don't know what I'd say in it
I'd probably just stare, happy just to be there, holding your face
Beam me up,
Let me be lighter, I'm tired of being a fighter,
I think a minute's enough,
Just beam me up.

Saw a blackbird soarin' in the sky,
Barely a breath I caught one last sight
Tell me that was you sayin' goodbye,
There are times I feel the shiver and cold,
It only happens when I'm on my own,
That's how you tell me I'm not alone

Could you beam me up,
Give me a minute, I don't know what I'd say in it
I'd probably just stare, happy just to be there, holding your face
Beam me up,
Let me be lighter, I'm tired of being a fighter,
I think a minute's enough,
Just beam me up.

In my head I see your baby blues
I hear your voice and I, I break in two and now there's
One of me, with you

So when I need you can I send you a sign
I'll burn a candle and turn off the lights
I'll pick a star and watch you shine

Just beam me up,
Give me a minute, I don't know what I'd say in it
I'd probably just stare, happy just to be there, holding your face
Beam me up,
Let me be lighter, I'm tired of being a fighter,
I think, a minute's enough,
Beam me up
Beam me up
Beam me up
Could you beam me up. 

I'm totally obsessed with this song.  For sure, what wouldn't I give to have a minute to see my baby? So pretty and sad. Although I have to disagree, I don't think a minute would be enough for me.