So yesterday was Mother's Day. It's a happy day for me, ultimately, as I am Mommy to a wonderful adorable little boy that I lovelovelove to pieces! And it was an improvement over last year. This year Tyler just had a nasty cold thing I had last week. Last year he spent the day throwing up on me. Strawberry flavored vomit *shudder* He was totally into talking about how it was Mother's Day AND Gaga (my mom)'s birthday. He didn't approve of the cheesecake in place of a birthday cake though. "He" gave me a beautiful purple butterfly necklace...because I pointed it out to daddy. lol
Only now that it's over do I have time for a tiny bit of sadness. My SIL had a miscarriage last week. I think miscarriage ranks very high on my list of most horrible things that can happen. My SIL has had 3 altogether and 2 in a row. Yesterday must have been extremely hard for her.
And yes, I'm a little sad for me, because I want another baby so much. I take part in a forum for Mommy's trying to conceive and I see so many women like me who struggle to get pregnant, or to come to grips with miscarriages. I just read a story about a British actress that had a miscarriage and she was due in August. She must have been more than 6 months pregnant, how awful to lose a baby that late in a pregnancy. I consider myself lucky not to have had to go through that. Maybe I'm selfish to be sad that I haven't managed to conceive yet. We've been trying for 9 months or so, but some women try for years. It could be much worse.
So today, I chose to be thankful for the child I have. It would be enough even if I never manage to conceive another baby. He's my pride and joy and I couldn't love him more.