Friday, October 28, 2011

Suck it, October

This month SUCKS.  Praise Jeebus it only has 3 more days, two of which are weekend.  Work has been awful, Tyler hasn't felt well and will have his endoscopy next week, so he can't take his reflux meds and it's already bothering him.  And, not surprisingly, I'm not pregnant.

Okay, shake it off...letitgo

Good things!  I'm going to have a niece in April!!  My sister in law, who has three wonderful boys that I love to bits, is finally going to have a girl!  I can't wait to meet Elizabeth Grace!!

Tyler peepeed in the potty for the first time yesterday!  With all of his constipation problems, potty training has been delayed for the most part, and it was totally an accident that he went, but it's the first step!  My big boy!!!

Good things...good things...I could probably think of more, but I'm tired and cranky, so that's all I got!  Come on November, bring me good things!

Wednesday, October 19, 2011


Today I got a text message from twin. "I can't find my phone. Can you call me?" So I did. She answered right away.
Me: "so you found it."
Twin: *giggles gleefully* " could I text you if I couldn't find my phone?" *more giggles*
Me: *facepalm* "you suck."
I really fell for that. The good news is so did my husband! :-D LOL!
It's been one of those weeks where things just aren't working like they are supposed to! I haven't even really been getting mad about it. It's sort of funny! Monday, I came to work to find my monitor kaput. Tuesday, the scanner wouldn't work. Or rather it wouldn't work FOR ME. Today my vein wouldn't work! They never have a hard time taking my blood and yet....
Ah well, its amusing, really!

ETA: Yeah and now I realize that submitting my blogs via text message posts very short separate entries.  Why on Earth would I want that?!  *rolls eyes*

Friday, October 7, 2011

A request

Do you think if I put in a request now for next week to not suck, it might be granted?

'Cause really, last week sucked.  And this week, pretty much a suckfest too.

Firstly, my mom's diabetic 11 year old cat Tigger has been sick.  He had something that looked like a seizure the other day.  We were told it might have been a reaction to flea treatments and him being diabetic.  So we gave the cat a bath.  That wasn't a lot of fun.  The next day my mom took him to the vet. Turns out he is VERY anemic.  They aren't sure why, and my mom flat cannot afford the tests to really figure out why.  So far the vet is treating him as best as he can, with fluids mostly.  This vet doesn't keep animals overnight, so we keep having to take him back in to be checked again.  They are being super great and not charging for the extra care, God bless them.  But it remains to be seen if anything they can do at this point will help.

Also, today Tyler had a doctor's appointment at his GI specialist.  Tyler has been treated for acid reflux since he was a newborn.  He is also super picky about what he will eat and he has issues with constipation.  I went in thinking they were going to tell us to keep doing what we are doing, since he isn't doing too badly.  Instead, they said they want to do an endoscopy to see if there is an underlying problem that is causing him to not eat that well.  They also want to put a probe in for 24 hours that will measure the amount of reflux he's having.  Just the thought of putting him through that is making me feel sick.  I know it's what is best, they'll be able to treat him if there is a problem or we can take him off the reflux medication if that's not an issue anymore.  But it's still an awful though for a mother to have to allow her child to go through a scary thing like that.

Finally, I had my HSG test today.  It went okay, my uterus and right fallopian tube look good, but they dye wouldn't go through my left tube.  The doctor is blaming the fact that I was cramping during the procedure. Apparently, the opening of the tube is only about 1 millimeter, so if the uterus is cramping, the dye might not be able to get through.  Since the dye wasn't getting in at all and I don't have any history that would suggest a blockage, he isn't very concerned.  So we will continue with this cycle of Clomid and then move on if it doesn't work.

I guess I didn't think they would find anything abnormal, so now that nasty doubt is creeping in a little bit.  I know that if it's meant to be, it will happen.  But in this moment, I feel overwhelmed and sad.  I guess it's probably everything going on at once.

But if the universe could possibly squeeze out a less stressful, more pleasant or at least less eventful week next week, I would really appreciate it. Just putting it out there.

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

New News

                A friend of mine mentioned that I hadn’t written on my blog in awhile.  That’s true.  I guess there are a few reasons for that…One is that I’m cheating. LOL I’ve been contributing to a blog for woman TTC.  It’s been nice to be able to share my experiences there.  I don’t get a lot of comments, but I really do hope that some girls are reading it and can relate. It helps me to write it, anyway.  I don’t think I’ll stop writing about TTC here, but I do think it won’t be the main focus.

                So long story short, we are still trying to conceive baby number 2.  I’ve been seeing a reproductive endocrinologist and his office has been wonderful to work with.  I’m on my third cycle of Clomid.  So far, we know that I am ovulating and that everything else looks relatively normal.  The first month, I ovulated on CD 16 (normal for me was 18-23).  Last month I ovulated on CD 15.  The first month, I got my period 14 days after ovulation.  Last month was only 11 days after ovulation. Both months, my progesterone level was normal (12.6 the first month, 16 last month), but I was having spotting a few days before my period began.  My doctor thinks my progesterone level might be dropping a little earlier than it is supposed to, which could prevent a fertilized egg from implanting.  So this month, I’ll be taking progesterone supplements after I ovulate.  Hopefully it will help.  I am also scheduled to have a test called HSG done on Friday. Basically, dye will be inserted into my uterus and they will be able to check for abnormalities and blockages in the fallopian tubes. This is all guided by X-ray.  I am anxious to see what they find.  Many women have success shortly after the test, so I hope it might help us.

                Another reason is that I just don’t have that much to write about.  I’m in one of those ruts where life becomes a routine. It’s not a bad thing, but there is not a lot of exciting, witty things to write about just now.  I work, I take care of Tyler, I run errands, and I do things around the house.  That’s about it!  And I’ve been watching WAY too much TV lately.  I’ll feel better about that once I get my elliptical back in the house so I can work out while I watch.  LOL

                Tyler is doing well.  He’s chosen his Halloween costume (Thomas the Tank Engine) and we were finally able to get his hair cut last weekend (not the easiest thing).  He is not in the least bit interested in potty training (why am I not surprised), but I hope we’ll be able to tackle that soon.  He is being hilariously literal these days.  We've been working really hard at manners lately, specifically saying please.  He will ask for something and we remind him to say please.  When he says please (only) we try to get him to say the question again AND say please.  Usually he just agrees at that point, because he thinks we are asking. LOL

                The weather is cooler and the leaves are changing colors.  Fall is one of my favorite seasons. I love the weather and how pretty it is outside.  It makes me think of change and wonder what will change for me before the next fall.  Only time will tell.

Thanks always for reading!