Tuesday, June 14, 2011
All the things I never say
It occurred to me tonight that I'm always not saying something. I'm diplomatic and I tend to avoid conflict so I usually bite my tongue. I don't admit things to coworkers if I think they may think less of me. I don't tell a friend or family member just how much that thing they said or did hurt me. It's not that I'm dishonest about it, I just avoid being truly honest. Why am I like that? For the most part, I view it as a defense mechanism. Doing or saying the right thing saves me trouble, pain, and quite possibly the loss of a friend or loved one's relationship. But damn, it's exhausting sometimes, not saying something.